2day

i'm too angry at myself to express things to day.

p.s. sorry about yesterday's incomplete post; i got called away rather urgently.   actually, i'm not sorry at all

g'day!

long time, no blog.

I can't think of anything really to express today. So i'll go with an interesting event. Recentally i've been telling (making up) a story aloud to myself (and my girl, albeit she's generally asleep).

it is the tale of the Sticklebacks, a curious creature from deep in the forests. they stand a mere three feet (adverage) and are covered with fine, leafy green feathers. genterally the feathers are aspen shaped.

and now for something entirely different

so i've discovered a crazy think about myself.
I'm ADD so i take a stimulant for concentration reasons and what forth and yahoo and so on.

so when i found myself in a conversation with a coworker who wished to obtain aderal (addy, only because i can only assume he doesn't know about the wide varity of simlar drugs and the wide range of side effects). instead of purchasing illegally from someone who might actually make use of the drug or has long ago discovered that it was better as an income supplement then as medical treatment, he planned to fake add or adhd and secure a legal perscription.

Intrigued, i asked him why.

Appartly it made him wake in both mind and body such that he could not study all semester and "cram the night before." I'm no stranger the all-nighter. I can testify to the problematic test sleepiness. One of ritalin's (or Methylphenidate, the drug i was suggested) side effects is its infuriating insomina. along with teeth grinding, eye strain, muscle hypertention (ect) is a personal distaste of the drug. I hate it.

I switched away from pill drugs and even non-stimulant ADD medication, but ritalin is still the most effective to date. Currentally i'm prescribed a dermalpatch pharmaceutical (daytrona) which works pretty well, as it leaves my system in about 30mins after i remove the patch and i even grind my teeth less ^.^

unfortunately, it is not prefect.

but back to B----: as i said, he simply wanted a pharmaceutical that would energize him. Much like caffeine but more brain interactive and longer lasting. I suggested meth. (not really, i told him it was goin' be alot easier and cheaper to purchase one pill at a time)

well all this got me thinking. In my memories, i found that products that slow you down -depressents- like alcohol and weed make me more intense (to a point, i mean if i consume alot of booze i'm goin' pass out or try to climb a restricted building) but things like coffee and ritalin slow me. it's as if when my biological processes are speed up (as caffine does) my active neurologicals are normalized; and when in the presence of a depressent (alcohol) my mind is suddenly under clocked and perceives everything. I wonder if anyone has noticed this effect.

Unfortunately (actually, fortunately), the only barbiturate i've tried is alcohol. i was give codeine for a flu when i was little, but i can't recall how that effected me.

just a pondering.

sorry nothing new today.
well, maybe later.
the world seems to be catching up with me

A little History

as in this is as old as history

In the year 3000 (approximately) a dramatic event caused a deadly change across the planet. Species all over the globe have stood before the test of time. Many died off. A few managed to survive; most, however, have struggled on through mutation and selected evolution. Including the infamous human race. Humans have been know in the evolutionary chain as intuitive, resourceful and above all, adaptable. To the point of manipulating the subtle events far beyond their own lives and reach. Little of man has changed; like all flora and fauna the hardier have survived (as have the nimble and the brutally resourceful). curious enough, survival was only impart due to random, beneficial mutation; a while before the "Black-Out" science had perfected the art of gene manipulation and the completion of the “General Genome Referencing By Genius Encyclopedia” simply referred to as “The Genome Tome” helped gene augmentation thrive. What followed is still unknown, but by the middle of the 27th century, the world governments had banned gene therapy, cloning, artificial creation, and cross-species insemination. With this came a sweeping change. All but three copies of The Genome Tome were destroyed as were all known bioengineering facilities. All experiments were ceased and eradicated. few historical documents survived. what we know from this era is in the salvaged writing of rebels and what can be gleamed from the culture. Of the three known copies of The Genome Tome, one was safe guarded by the Federation of the United Free Nations. Another turned up in 2889, where an underground origination (Las Personas) used the book’s information to synthesize an army of incredible strength to “free” the people. It was a war of extermination.

It was fought across space and engulfed earth in fire and death. It was a war that had no humanly end. what was meant to eradicate bore the fruit of a new life. a cosmic restart button. It is possible that this war never ended, only paused, waiting for humanity to rebuild itself so that it might continue unabated in out future. Nevertheless, in the the "Black-Out" that crafted our world today.

Thats all the history for today. Tune in tomorrow for more.

here i am; rocking like a hurricane.

hi there 2day there will be content.

oh, hey! it's 2009!

oh yeah i almost forgot. it's a new year

they really should have a holiday for this sorta thing. anyway, new post with content tomarrow

(i promise)

luvs.

-marcus