and now for something entirely different

so i've discovered a crazy think about myself.
I'm ADD so i take a stimulant for concentration reasons and what forth and yahoo and so on.

so when i found myself in a conversation with a coworker who wished to obtain aderal (addy, only because i can only assume he doesn't know about the wide varity of simlar drugs and the wide range of side effects). instead of purchasing illegally from someone who might actually make use of the drug or has long ago discovered that it was better as an income supplement then as medical treatment, he planned to fake add or adhd and secure a legal perscription.

Intrigued, i asked him why.

Appartly it made him wake in both mind and body such that he could not study all semester and "cram the night before." I'm no stranger the all-nighter. I can testify to the problematic test sleepiness. One of ritalin's (or Methylphenidate, the drug i was suggested) side effects is its infuriating insomina. along with teeth grinding, eye strain, muscle hypertention (ect) is a personal distaste of the drug. I hate it.

I switched away from pill drugs and even non-stimulant ADD medication, but ritalin is still the most effective to date. Currentally i'm prescribed a dermalpatch pharmaceutical (daytrona) which works pretty well, as it leaves my system in about 30mins after i remove the patch and i even grind my teeth less ^.^

unfortunately, it is not prefect.

but back to B----: as i said, he simply wanted a pharmaceutical that would energize him. Much like caffeine but more brain interactive and longer lasting. I suggested meth. (not really, i told him it was goin' be alot easier and cheaper to purchase one pill at a time)

well all this got me thinking. In my memories, i found that products that slow you down -depressents- like alcohol and weed make me more intense (to a point, i mean if i consume alot of booze i'm goin' pass out or try to climb a restricted building) but things like coffee and ritalin slow me. it's as if when my biological processes are speed up (as caffine does) my active neurologicals are normalized; and when in the presence of a depressent (alcohol) my mind is suddenly under clocked and perceives everything. I wonder if anyone has noticed this effect.

Unfortunately (actually, fortunately), the only barbiturate i've tried is alcohol. i was give codeine for a flu when i was little, but i can't recall how that effected me.

just a pondering.